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02-15-2008, 02:11 PM
In November,we adopted two kittens from our local cat sanctuary. The male kitten, Casanova, developed fine, grew like a weed and is now a toe-hunting menace. The female, Crackers, stopped growing, started to hold her tail oddly and eventually lost most of the control in her back legs. We were initially told by the vet that it was probably congenital or toxioplasma. A second opinion said she had 'luxating patellas' or dodgey knees.

A specialist has now said, having taken blood, that there's something wrong with her intestines so she can't digest any food and is basically starving, she's probably got a viral infection, and there's a possibility she has FIP. FIP is fatal, nontreatable and is just too horrible to contemplate.

This kitten is my best friend and companion, she's stolen my heart so quickly and she might be in pain I can't help. She's my baby and I might loose her.

She has another vet trip on Tuesday morning, hopefully I bring her home from that visit with the knowledge she can be helped.

Sorry for the splurge. Didn't manage not to cry.

02-15-2008, 02:23 PM
I'm so sorry for your pain and your kitty's pain, I totally understand the connection that you feel. I will be hoping against hope for you that you can bring her home with a plan of action - make sure you give her lots of hugs and snuggles in the mean time.

Good luck *hugs*

02-15-2008, 02:35 PM

02-15-2008, 03:02 PM
I feel for you . I hope that you get good news at your next visit to the vets :hug: :hug:

02-15-2008, 03:05 PM
:hug: :heart: :hug:

02-15-2008, 03:09 PM
Awww, the poor baby, I hope she'll be alright. Mary

02-15-2008, 03:31 PM
I am so very sorry. I hope and pray that was a wrong diagnosis, and you get better news this time.

02-15-2008, 03:36 PM
Omigod I am so sorry!! :hug: :hug: I have saved a kitten who stayed small but she is perfectly healthy we just don't know why she stayed small. though the vet always thoroughly checks her to make sure he didn't miss anything at every appt to make sure. I really hope she doesnt have FIP. That would be so terrible. :hug: :hug:

02-15-2008, 03:57 PM
I hope your Vet can find a treatment for her soon! :grphug:

02-15-2008, 03:59 PM
It's ok to cry! I hope things turn out ok and I'm really sorry to hear of all of this. :hug:

02-15-2008, 04:15 PM
I am so sorry to hear this! :hug::hug:

A few years ago, I had a kitten and he had FIP. It is truly a horrible, cruel disease! I truly hope your baby does not have FIP and whatever the problem may be it can be controlled with medicine. I'll be thinking of you and your kitten!

02-15-2008, 04:39 PM

This is Crackers, as of this afternoon.

02-15-2008, 04:51 PM
I feel for you . I hope that you get good news at your next visit to the vets :hug: :hug:

me too. im sorry!

02-15-2008, 05:20 PM

02-15-2008, 05:37 PM
She's a real sweety! Hope you'll get some good news from the vet :hug:Crossed Fingers

02-15-2008, 06:22 PM
Oh geez, they break your hearts don't they.
best wishes to you and the baby...

02-15-2008, 06:25 PM
I have an Orange and Black Calico like Crackers named Patches. Patches is around 3, so very shy and only comes out from her closet in the evenings..... Awww, your baby is so sweet. Prayers and good thoughts for her, Laptop.

02-15-2008, 06:29 PM
FIP is not treatable but is is possible for your kitten to live with it. I have a cat, she is now 5. We got her from a pet store. She has FIP and has had it since birth I am told. They found it when she went in for sterilization. The vet has us feeding her a prescription diet called KP. Ask him about it next week when she goes again.

Tara is good and healthy, has glossy hair and shiny eyes, is frisky at times and does quite well day to day. She cannot eat any scraps or tuna or anything other than the KD. It is also a good idea to give her bottled water instead of tap water. Every now and then she vomits up the fluids that are hanging around in her system, but otherwise we have no problems.

Don't give up hope yet! I was devastated when I found out Tara was sick but she does really well. I repeat, DON'T GIVE UP HOPE YET!

02-15-2008, 06:34 PM
What exactly is KIP? Patches has alot of problems with her digestion and throws up alot especially when she eats dry food. I was told she has hairballs.

sue in canada
02-15-2008, 06:38 PM
I am so sorry to hear your news. Keep loving her and hopefully she can be treated and regain her strength.

02-15-2008, 06:41 PM
Feline Infectious Peritonitus (not sure if that spelling is correct). Check it up on the internet. Basically it is where fluid collects in and around the vital organs of the body cavity causing swelling and tenderness. I am not sure what causes this, but perhaps you can find out on the internet.

My cat is the second cat that I have heard of that has this disease and functions quite normally, so I repeat again PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP HOPE YET!!!


02-15-2008, 08:22 PM
What exactly is KIP? Patches has alot of problems with her digestion and throws up alot especially when she eats dry food. I was told she has hairballs.

According to wiki:
Feline infectious peritonitis (FIP) is a fatal, incurable disease that affects cats. It is caused by Feline Infectious Peritonitis Virus (FIPV), which is a mutation of Feline Enteric Coronavirus (FECV/FeCoV. Experts do not always agree on the specifics of FIP. However, the most common theory is that the normally benign FECV mutates into FIPV. The mutated virus has the ability to invade and grow in certain white blood cells, namely macrophages. The immune system's response causes an intense inflammatory reaction in the containing tissues. This disease is generally fatal [1]. However its incidence rate is roughly 1 in 5000 for households with one or two cats.

There are two main forms of FIP: effusive (wet) and non-effusive (dry). While both types are fatal, the effusive form is more common (60-70% of all cases are wet) and progresses more rapidly than the non-effusive form.

Effusive (wet)
The hallmark clinical sign of effusive FIP is the accumulation of fluid within the abdomen or chest, which can cause breathing difficulties. Other symptoms include lack of appetite, fever, weight loss, jaundice, and diarrhea.

Non-effusive (dry)
Dry FIP will also present with lack of appetite, fever, jaundice, diarrhea, and weight loss, but there will not be an accumulation of fluid. Although typically a cat with dry FIP will show ocular or neurological signs. For example it may become hard to walk or stand up, the cat may become paralyzed over time. There could also be a loss of sight.

02-15-2008, 08:45 PM
Aww, I'm so so sorry! It's hard to when your 4 legged babies are sick or hurt. They look at you to make it better and when you can't it hurts so badly. I lost my favorite dog 2 years ago to cancer. That was the worst! Prayers for the little one to get better!!

02-15-2008, 10:50 PM

02-15-2008, 10:58 PM
What exactly is KIP? Patches has alot of problems with her digestion and throws up alot especially when she eats dry food. I was told she has hairballs.

FIP is Feline Infectious Peritonitis, a disease caused by a coronavirus infection. FIP-producing strains are distinguished by their ability to invade and grow in certain white blood cells. The infected cells transport the virus throughout the cat's body. An intense inflammatory reaction occurs in the tissues where these virus-infected cells locate. It is this interaction between the body's own immune system and the virus that is responsible for the disease.

More info can be found here: http://www.vet.cornell.edu/fhc/brochures/fip.html

02-16-2008, 01:07 AM
Oh,, this hurts my heart... Feline's being my fave, and she is sooo adorable. I have a cali myself... a little devil, but love her like the rest!

If you feel like you are getting a good diagnosis, then follow what they say, but don't forget, sometimes our four-legged friends may need a second opinion... it has helped me (my babies) a few of times... But, unfortunately, not all...

02-16-2008, 01:31 AM
I'm so sorry to hear about your kitty! Crying is perfectly normal and we are all here for you :grphug:

NC Girl
02-16-2008, 06:44 AM
Aww, I'm so sorry, but hopefully you'll hear some good news. I have an 18 1/2-year-old calico, so I'm kinda partial to them.

Good thoughts to you! :hug:


02-16-2008, 07:38 AM
Thanks everyone, sometimes you just need to know kind people are out there. She seems a little stronger this morning, ate maybe half a food sache.

02-16-2008, 02:34 PM
Just now Crackers fell off the metal sofa in an attempt to find somewhere ok to piddle. I think she hit her headorneck or something. She's breathing real fast and is pretty non-responsive - still breathing, swallowing, purring occasionally, ears twitching, but no response to her name. I'm just gonna hold her for the rest of the night.

02-16-2008, 02:38 PM
I am so sorry! You need this :hug: as much as she does!!! My thoughts are with you both tonight.

02-16-2008, 02:43 PM
I'm sooo sorry! I know how quickly they can claim your heart. I'll say a prayer for you and your kitty. Hoping you get good news on Tuesday! :hug: :hug:

02-16-2008, 04:32 PM
Tonight at 7.40 Crackers passed away peacefully thanks to the PDSA.

She started fitting, so we rushed her to the PDSA via taxi and there the vet told us that she was in alot of pain. I was with her as she passed, so we've said or goodbyes. In two days we can place her ashes in the garden with a lovely spring flowers.

Thank you everyone for the support and good wishes.

02-16-2008, 04:37 PM
I am so so very sorry! :hug: She is not suffering now and is in a far better place than you and I. It's ok to cry. Be good to yourself!

02-16-2008, 05:45 PM
:hug: I am so sorry for your loss.

from a fellow cat owner

02-16-2008, 07:52 PM
Oh, no. I'm so sorry for your loss. I was really pulling for her, and I feel like crying with you.:cry:

02-16-2008, 08:38 PM
I am so sorry. Such a shame to not have more time with her, but she had to have known how much you loved her. :hug:

My heart goes out to you.

02-16-2008, 09:26 PM
I am so sorry for your loss and I can only imagine what you are going through. She is in a better place now and will suffer no longer. I will be praying for you during this very hard time.

02-16-2008, 10:13 PM
oh no, I am so sorry. i'll be thinking of you

02-16-2008, 10:29 PM
I am so sorry. :verysad:

02-16-2008, 11:06 PM
Thank you all for your messages. I only joined the forum today when my daughter (aka lap top knitter) told me about the support you all were giving her. It's been a sad evening in our house.

02-16-2008, 11:52 PM
:hug::hug:I am so sorry for your loss, it's so hard losing a pet.

02-17-2008, 02:26 AM
praying for the kitty and you. :hug:

02-17-2008, 12:40 PM
Aww, honey, I'm so sorry.

02-17-2008, 09:33 PM
I am so sorry that you are going through this right now. My sister just lost one of her kitties too...it's so hard!

Big hugs are being sent your way.:hug:

02-17-2008, 09:49 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss. They give us so much love.

02-18-2008, 12:34 AM
You gave her a happy loving home and wonderful care!! hugs my friend. :heart:

02-18-2008, 12:48 AM
Thank you all for your messages. I only joined the forum today when my daughter (aka lap top knitter) told me about the support you all were giving her. It's been a sad evening in our house.

Laptopknittersmum: welcome to KH! I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved little kitten. I know it's a hard time for your family. If you can keep busy, it might help! You've come to the right place for that here. Do you knit? If so, perhaps you and your DD (dear daughter) can keep each other occupied going yarn shopping and knitting something with a bit of a challenging to it, in order to keep your minds off your loss.

Once again, welcome to our ever growing knitting family! :hug:

Jan in CA
02-18-2008, 12:55 AM
I am so so sorry. I know how awful it is to lose a pet too soon. Hugs to you and your family. :hug:

02-18-2008, 05:10 AM
I'm so sorry - I hope you can find some peace in an awful time *hugs*

02-18-2008, 08:13 AM
I just read your story, I am so sorry crackers passed away. All my hugs go to you :hug:. I know she is in a better place in Pet Heaven.:heart:

02-18-2008, 06:48 PM
I'm sorry about your kitty. She was too young. But it's always hard no matter what.

I lost my cat today...details in another thread.

02-18-2008, 07:31 PM
Thanks for the support everyone, you've got me through a tough weekend! :hug: and :muah: to you all!

02-18-2008, 10:12 PM
So sorry to hear about your kitty. Don't try not to cry - get a box of tissues and cry. I had any number of pets growing up and grieved for all of them. My first rabbit died and I spent 2 days just staring at her cage, first dog died (at 5 yrd old - massive brain aneurysm) and shoot I'm lucky I didn't fail out of college !! I didn't eat for a week and didn't sleep for longer than that. My parents would find me sitting out in the snow in my PJ's sobbing where we buried her. Second rabbit died just last year and poor hubby didn't know what to do - I spent 2 days cleaning the house top to bottom and spent all night crying.
Have a good cry and when you're heart is ready you'll find another kitty. It took me a couple of months, but I found another pound puppy that needed our love.

sue in canada
02-18-2008, 11:37 PM
I am so sorry to hear your news.

Becky Morgan
02-18-2008, 11:58 PM
I am SO sorry! She went exactly the way our tiny Kenny Lee did a couple of years ago. (He had a congenital heart defect.) The little ones are such bundles of sunshine, aren't they? When their pain ends, ours begins.

Hugs and lots of tissues...she's worth it.

02-19-2008, 12:14 AM
I'm so sorry you lost your kitty, she was beautiful. :hug: