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lelvsdgs
10-22-2008, 10:05 PM
Last week I had a hysterectomy and have been staying at a friends to recuperate. In preparing for that, I put the various meds I take into one of those pill minders.

So, the last three days I've become increasingly depressesd, weepy and have not been able to sleep. Since I take an anti-depressant, I chalked it up to a reaction to the surgery and missing my kitty. Today, I happened to look in my nighttime compartment and realized that the anti-depressant was missing. Here's the good news bad news part. The good news is it isn't the post surgery blues, the bad news, I obviously still need those damn pills! :!!!: I was really hoping to be weaning myself off them soon but now, I'm not so sure.

I'm feeling physically great as far as the surgery goes, ZERO pain, I mean literally NO PAIN.... (I have the best doctor in the world) That was why I was confused about the depression... oh, could be worse, I could be in massive amounts of pain.

The best thing? I've had tons of no-guilt knitting time... There is always a silver lining isn't there?

Hildegard_von_Knittin
10-22-2008, 10:32 PM
Sorry to hear about your medicine mix up... and the surgery!!!! :hug: That's a big deal.
I'd miss my kitty too!

Hope you feel better soon--physically and emotionally! :hug: :heart: :hug:

Dangles
10-22-2008, 10:41 PM
:hug: feel better soon.

Jan in CA
10-22-2008, 11:10 PM
I hope you can get your pills so you'll be feeling better soon!

evona
10-23-2008, 12:42 AM
I'm so sorry about the pill issue, but yet very happy that you are recuperating so well after surgery! :hug: :hug: I hope you get your medicine soon. Have fun knitting and take care of yourself! :hug: :hug: :heart: :heart:

DQ
10-23-2008, 05:21 AM
:hug::hug::hug::hug:

I hope all the knitting helps until you can get your pills.

rachael72knitter
10-23-2008, 06:14 AM
I am glad it is just the pills and not the surgery, but I want to share my exp with weaning myself off. I did for two years, and it was a very rough two years. I was depressed. . .a lot.

I got back on them and have just come to realize it is an imbalance thing that I need medicine for. I have just come to terms with the fact that I will probably need to stay on them for the rest of my life.

Of course. . . there are times when I am taking my happy pill and I think, why do I need this? Then I remember. . .I only think that because I am taking them.

I had a friend wean herself off of them, and she was convinced the pills masked who she really was. She stopped taking them and fell into a deep depression. . .and she took her own life. She was 34. Not saying this is you, but one can get very depressed esp. since it is often a vicious cycle, downward spiral kind of thing. Also, because we are the worst at getting back on the pills and getting that help once we are depressed.

I am not trying to scare you or depress you more, just as a person who gets depressed and knows all about feeling the need to not take them, well. . .it always kind of scares me.

I've been there.

I hope you feel better, and hope I wasn't too much of a downer with my story.

Knitting_Guy
10-23-2008, 07:50 AM
Glad the surgery went well, but get a refill on your pills right away. That kind of medication can't just be stopped suddenly, what you've been feeling is probably withdrawal from suddenly not taking them any more.

auburnchick
10-23-2008, 08:59 AM
:hug:

PurlyGyrl
10-23-2008, 09:04 AM
:hug:

dustinac
10-23-2008, 09:15 AM
:hug: :heart: :hug:

Simply_Renee
10-23-2008, 09:52 AM
(((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))

Remember that needing meds for depression is like needing meds for high blood pressure, or diabetes, or any other physical ailment. I don't know why there is such a stigma for chemical imbalances in the brain- anywhere else they're normal things nobody worries as much about.

Happy knitting until your meds get there!

Sunshine's Mom
10-23-2008, 11:20 AM
:hug: Much support and love.

Take care of yourself and get that refill. Glad to hear you're not in pain from the surgery. And I'm jealous about all your knitting time! Chin up! :p

lelvsdgs
10-23-2008, 03:44 PM
Wow everyone! Thanks for all your support! I am home now with my kitty on my lap and feel better already. I called my regular doc and he said to go ahead and take a pill now and then take one tonight and things should balance out. I sometimes think these "mistakes" are the way the Universe reminds me that I don't know it all. As all of you have said, this is not something to just stop (duh, I should know that by now). And I sometimes get cocky about it. My case is a case of chemistry and I need the pills to keep the chemistry balanced. Sometimes I just forget...

The best part of coming home??? The shipment of 5 balls of alpaca/silk yarn I ordered from WEBS! I ordered it to make a shawl for the friend who took me in after the surgery... it feels like pure heaven!! cloud9

Off to knit!!

Spikey
10-23-2008, 09:08 PM
Glad you are back home with kitty!

Best wishes for a speedy recovery.

Puddinpop
10-23-2008, 10:53 PM
Glad you are doing so well. What if we didn't have any medicine to take for depression. That would be bad. So we have to take a pill. It's worth it to me not to be depressed and enjoy my life. I am so thankful that I was diagnosed and there was something this easy to treat it. Think of this, you just had a hysterectomy and that is no little thing, no matter that you have no pain. You could be dealing with the mental side of that. There might still be a day that you can get off of them gradually, when things are not as stressful.

lelvsdgs
10-24-2008, 01:12 PM
And it just keeps getting better! I now have no working toilet... the plumber is coming soon but I can't take a shower because the toilet has backed up into the tub... this is a problem that the landlord just won't fix permanently... Thank god it's the same plumber as last time so he knows what he needs to do to fix it.

Slept well for the first time in days... yay Celexa!!!!

Arielluria
10-24-2008, 01:17 PM
People often get down about HAVING to take pills, feel dependent on them, and as someone who's had to take anti-convulsants all my life I understand. I went through a phase of not wanting to any more. Just know that YOUR pill taking is temporary, mine is not! ;)

Hopefully that puts it into perspective for you.:hug:

lelvsdgs
10-24-2008, 06:21 PM
People often get down about HAVING to take pills, feel dependent on them, and as someone who's had to take anti-convulsants all my life I understand. I went through a phase of not wanting to any more. Just know that YOUR pill taking is temporary, mine is not! ;)

Hopefully that puts it into perspective for you.:hug:

Well, it's looking like I may be on these pretty much forever. Chemical imbalance and all means that there will be some sort of a need to take something. Sometimes I just get sick of it like I'm sure you do. I just need to get over myself about it and stop having pity parties for myself! :oops:
Thanks for the encouragement and hope you are continuing to be healthy and happy! :hug: