I agree, styrch. Just relax, and take it slow. Knitting should be fun, not a pain.
Maybe you're trying to learn a different way from what your grandmother taught you. Just try different things, and then it will all come back to you.
Maybe you should start with a smaller project, instead of a scarf.
You can try using different yarns and different needles. You can also try changing colors, or mixing different yarns together. It will be fun!
A headband or a dishcloth would be easier and quicker to make. Or even a small coaster.
Here are some simple patterns to start with:
Headband: Cast on 10 stitches.
Knit every row, until the headband fits around your head.
Bind off and sew the ends together.
Dishcloth: Cast on 40 stitches
Knit every row until it is a square.
Bind off.
Coaster: Cast on 15 stitches
Knit every row until it is a square.
Bind off.
Good luck!
