I'm going to take what you said at face value- it sounds to me like you know just how lucky you are- but knowing that doesn't stop you from feeling a little disappointed inside, and that is OK. You're just trying to get that feeling out, I think, and that's OK too! Sometimes a little bit of 'getting it out' can help you feel better about the whole thing- and I hope it did.
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Carey
Mommy to two wonderful girls
"I don't have to conform to the vagaries of time and space, I'm a loony!" -Campbell Bain (David Tennant) 'Takin' Over the Asylum'
OTN:
Cabled Sweater, arm warmers, kids' clothes