the thing you have to keep in mind is what is best for your sanity. you need to be able to focus your love on the people who will love you back. i've never had a relationship with my father and when i was in my teens i tried, i wanted to have a father-daughter expierance. he just couldn't make that connection so as i got into my 20's i just stopped trying. i know my situation is different from yours but it did help my piece of mine to finally have closure.
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