I think I am just part of a guilt spiral.
We talked things out...and really, nothing has changed. She was talking calmly. She is even going to try and raise the money for us to go.
That part might be my fault. I jokingly said "get a fund going and get his family to pay - Say you can't get the matron of honour there unless there is a fund" I think she is actually going to do it. I can't really say no then, can I? I suppose I could, but that would be bad....
It is like talking to a scorned puppy dog. And really hard to spin the "no". Really hard to say no when it is "you are my only friend" that pops up.
Give me a day or two to get angry again, right now I am feeling kinda helpless...if that even sounds right...
Growing old is mandatory, growing UP is optional!