im so sorry you lost her. and she had a little one, too. my heart goes out to him and to you.
those hands, arent they supposed to be helping you not making it harder?? that makes me so angry. they shouldnt be messing with you or the calf at a time like this.
on a totally practical note: do you lose money not giving these cows to market? i would love to raise cows and not have to send them to market!