This is just my opinion, but I think you are COMPLETELY entitled to feel the way you do. I would feel the same way no matter how happy my mom was. The fact is, is that this affects you,
and you are having a tough time with it. That is perfectly natural.
I know most of the posts have said, just leave it alone if your moms happy then let her be happy. I'm sorry, but I just don't agree with all of that. Sure, eventually you will come to terms with it, but it is
a strange situation, I'm sure anyone (minus AL and KY folks
) would feel the same way you feel. Of course some woudn't admit it, but they would. It is completely natural. So don't feel badly for how you are reacting to it. Just keep talking about it, openly. That's the only way to get through things. Talk. Talk. Talk. If you don't, then things will fester. Trust me, that was my life growing up, just be quiet Cathy, they would say. I was shushed my whole life.
Keep the lines of communication open. Can you tell your mom how you are feeling? Can you talk to her in private without getting her on the defensive?
I'm sorry you are having to deal with this situation, it's tough. Many