Hi Scout - I'm sorry you are going through such a hard time. I just want to add - there's no shame in crying. "Don't fight the cry". It's emotional release, and you need to get it out. Sometimes a cry can be therapeutic. We are all wishing for a recovery for your sweet grandfather, and I hope you have many more opportunities to hug him and tell him how much you care about him.
Nobones - so sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.