Nadja, my heart is so heavy for you.
I will pray and lift your dh and you before our Heavenly Father.
I hope you do start a blog here. I don't read the blogs here, not that they aren't interesting, but rather due to time constraints. I would read yours, though. I think it would be a good way for you to post updates, vent when needed, and receive support which you're so desparately going to need.