Hi all, this is the 4th time I've tried writing this post as I am very nervous of what responses I may get.
I don't even know how it happened, I mean I'm the type of person who hates (Please don't judge me on this) going out to restaurants because it seems like every kid under the age of 2 is within a 5 foot radius just screaming at the top of their lungs while the parents just laugh away.
I can't believe I said that out loud
I must sound like a horrible person, but for some reason I've just never been a 'kid' person. Please don't get me wrong, I love my nephew and nieces and would put up with them for anything, but for some reason, sigh, I don't know what's wrong with me.
Then all of a sudden around last December I just started getting this overwhelming urge to have a baby. And its just gotten stronger and stronger ever since I told my DH. Now everytime I turn on the tv, someone is either finding out their pregnant or giving birth and then - BOOM - I'm a complete blubbering idiot. The tears just flow from god knows where.
Why is this happening? I never believed in the whole 'biological clock' story, is this what it is? And then on the other hand we are in no financial position to bring another life into this world. I keep going back and forth in my head, one second I talk myself out of it and then the next second that makes absolutely no sense either.
I'm going to be 30 this year, its a bit far away, but man, I'm going nuts here.
Any helpful, encouraging advice out there?