I'm so glad that you came here to chat about this, we are friends here
I'm so sorry that life hasn't been so peachy this year. Please know that I am praying for you and your family...I am here to chat anytime that you wish.
I'm also happy to see that your disposition is so good, that's marvelous, and, speaking from experience (I'm 47 and have been disabled for 20 years) I will tell you that having a good attitude and faith (especially faith) will see you thru the rough spots. Please don't hesitate to pm or email me should you feel like it...you are in my prayers