Knitting_Guy, first of all, I'd like to thank you...for a variety of reasons, really. I clicked on 'off-topic' because I was going to post a very similar post as you. I recently re-married and moved to England from Los Angeles- normally a good thing, right? Fresh start, new life...fantastic! The thing is, I am not working due to needing my spousal visa which has turned into a monstrous headache. I've always had a job, something to do which kept my mind from wandering and also gave me the opportunity to meet people...which leads to the next issue - few friends. I've always made friends at or through work so without that job, there haven't been too many friend opps. I've been trying for 3 months to get a knit group together but it seems there are no knitters near me (though I finally
got a bite on a post I'd put on another website...yay!). With no job, I don't feel I have my own money and have always felt guilty spending someone else's. We do fine on my husband's salary but I like knowing I'm contributing financially. Adding to the above is that my husband works for an international airline and is away 3 1/2 days a week. Hardly all problems in most people's eyes but in my world it's been a hard blow as I've always worked and made my own way. So what do I get out of all of this? A mild depression, it would seem. I've been the same KG: sad for seemingly no reason, weepy (NOT to be confused with "wimpy"!), and just an overall feeling of "blah". Food doesn't taste as good as it should; I've felt reclusive because I don't want anyone to see me like this, especially when Weepy Dwarf comes to visit (I do wish he'd bring some Ben & Jerry's); I've been watching way too much tv, spending way too much time on the internet, and way too little time knitting; and worst of all, my husband is certainly being affected by all of this as it's not only food that doesn't excite me like it used to. It's not him, it's me (that does
sound cheesy, doesn't it?) and deep down I think he knows that but it sure doesn't help his psyche much. Having my dog with me, especially when my husband is gone, has been very helpful but there ain't much conversation there.
Hopefully, the visa will be sorted this week and I'll be able to work soon, but I'm still down and feeling kinda helpless, to be honest. I had to fly BACK to LA to get the visa from the British embassy as they won't allow an expat to go the embassy in the UK to do it. Just adds to the whole ' I need my own money' thing.
I said all that to say this: Knitting_Guy, you are NOT a wimp because you feel the need to cry. We all, men included, have got to let that buildup go and sometimes a good cry is just what we need. The fact that you were man enough to express it on here was a huge step in moving past what you're feeling now. Don't feel bad about taking time from the knitting post - there must be a reason for the 'off topic' post in the first place and clearly some caring people who check it as well. I'm personally glad to have found it.
Seems as though there's a lot of support here. I'm happy that there's a go-to for knitting help where I actually get timely responses to questions I've posted, unlike another site I was using. And I'm especially happy to see how many caring and concerned folks there are when someone is having a problem, knitting related or not. Keep sharing your feelings KG, whether here or in a journal, as mentioned. I write a lot - I call it "brain vomit" because one way or another, it needs to come out.
Take care and know that we're all here for one another.
Oh, and thanks for letting me vent.