I know what you are going through, but I can tell you when you do stop, you will feel great! You will have much more energy, your clothes and hair will not smell, you won't have to think about when and when your next cigarette will be. No more standing out in the freezing cold! Your doctor will be happy, you will add years to your life. I don't know if you have kids, but if you do, they are young enough they won't remember you smoking and if you don't, you won't have to worry about quitting when you decide to get pregnant. You will be able to walk up the stairs with out feeling like your going to pass out. You can check off NO to any doctor forms, life insurance forms to the "do you smoke" questions! It feels great to do that
I can tell you all this good stuff because I quit smoking 5 years ago this past December 17, 2007 which happens to be the day my granddaughter was born (she will never know me as a smoker).
It is the best thing I have ever done for myself and yes it is hard as hell, but it beats the alternatives!!
This is how I quit...it may not work for everyone, but it did for me. I smoked for 25 years, not 24 not 26 exactly 25 long years.
In September of 07 I decided I was going to quit, I had never tried before and I was determined I was only going to have to do it once.
I picked December 17th as my quit day
I smoked my brains out until that day. I enjoyed every minute of it, because I didn't feel guilty because I knew I was going to quit.
On December 16 I smoked so much that even at midnight I had to have ONE more, so I did and then I slapped on the nicotine patch.
(o.k. one big mistake here and don't you make it!
it wasn't funny at the time, but I'm looking back here...I had smoked so much that day, that by adding a patch I was on nicotine overload and spent my first quit day throwing up and shaking, but at least I didn't feel like smoking!)
The patch has three steps. After the first step (which I think each step was for 3 weeks) I did it again. I did the second step for the one time and I did the third step two times. So instead of using the patch for the usual 9 weeks, I did it for 15.
I sucked on Werther's butterscotch and yes I did gain weight, but that is because I didn't exercise. So I went to Weight Watchers 6 months after I quit and lost it.
Anyway this is a long enough letter. I am still not smoking and I can't believe it doesn't bother me...I never thought I would see the day and I can't believe it is 5 years.
It is not easy, it will probably be the hardest thing you ever do. That's why I started out by telling you all the good things first.
I wish you luck and will keep you in my thoughts