I do a cast on where you make a slip knot and put it on your needle. Then you hold the yarn as a kind of loop with your pointer finger and your thumb, then you draw your needle through the loop, and keep doing that until you have all your stitches.
I think that's the backward loop. Have a look at the cast on videos and see if one is like you do.
sue- knitting heretic
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